Poetry

Gray page No.1 - me (?)

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All I do
All I try to
Becoming me
Try to
know me
Try to
learn to know
not what
but who
is me

trying
falling
crawling
standing
falling again
harder
faster
it's hurting
but I'm learning

Mirror shows
only reflection
People speak
from their perspection
God sees me
through Jesus' perfection
He knows me
and gave the right emotion
to search myself

still
I know not who I am
I wish
I were
me
I wish I once was
me
I wish
I knew
me
I wish I once will become
me

Forming lasts forever
Forever changing
Forever's changing
Yesterday's changing
Today
is what I make of it
-But I cannot do it alone-

Yet
unsatisfied with my own decisions
Blame
is for me to take
Must learn
when to stop
to stop taking the blame
how to stop
things that always have been
not to jump in the sewer if the whole world does
Once my strength,
now
a wound of flesh
scars
not given time to form
bleeding again

My soul
is bleeding empty
I
am bleeding empty
the scars
of not knowing how to be
me.

I am free
to be
who I want to be
but who
do I want to be?

Only God knows

© Warrior of the Light


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