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***' Forever seemed to be not long enough Living her life as everyone would be jealous at She decided that she didn't want to live anymore no reason to live, no reason to die so she spoke the duality in her sound of her words crashed deep into my heart Never I had heard her speak so depressed never I had suspected her to be suicidal... until that day She showed me the scars; two thin red lines across her wrists the wounds not even healed she cried and threw herself into my arms, crying she was telling her misery while I held her close too many things were done to her too many things wrecked her inside even though she knew that God had a plan for her apart even though she knew that God would hold her under His wings she decided to put the knife into her wrists She knew that this was not what she really wanted to do She knew that there were plenty ways out She knew that taking her life would not solve the problem as well But the wounds on her arm are real the damage to her soul is real questions rise up her head 'How could anyone still love me now how can I ever look into my own eyes again?' Standing there she cried over herself But I knew this would only be the beginning if the roots of her problem are not pulled out of their soil while tears are rolling down her face she told me her story always giving away the love to whoever needed it the most but all she saw was horror and pain the kind words she spoke seemed to never reach their goal She stood always ready to help someone else but while helping her friends around here she forgot about herself Her happyness was slowly drained from her The smiles on her face were still there and only those who really knew here could see that they were no more than an automatism and suddenly she broke she didn't even see it coming, she didn't even understand why but one evening here happyness was drained empty from her All the good work she did seemed so useless all so unthankfull She had put out the light in her own life simply expecting herself to be allright she kept giving away herself until she was empty but she didn't even notice until that one night then all crashed down on her unexpected different than she thought it would feel cold hard all she heard inside her was to put an end to it she agreed that something had to be done but all she heard was to take that knife now her wrists may heal in time her inner self will never be the same so she kept crying to cry out her inner pain but before she could ever heal within something had to change, so I told her As you noticed, your strength does not last forever giving away out of love is a beautiful thing to do but always at a high price that's what makes it so worthy she looked up to me, wiped away a tear with her left sleeve you really think so? she asked me it sure sucked me empty, I never ever thought I would cut myself So you need to re-fill your life again I know a infinite source of living water, one that will always bring you new life, but you'd have to take a step A step that's well worth it You cannot cary on living the way you did nothing in this world is capable of filling up what you need in your life you may search for it yourself but I know nothing will but this an eternal source of living water will give you new life within - eternal life Jesus offers you to be able to drink To drink the waters that flow in the heavens alone you cannot reach it you know you cannot reach it so admit to Him that you need His help in your life He sacrificed himself so you don't need to, your own death couldn't be enough anyway, you see? Admit and drink for free He'll smile and hand you all the water you need he'll give you the water and you can carry on with life She wiped away her final tear and looked straight ahead, not seeing anything so.. this new life is in fact for free? Yes, I added, It's a gift from Him for you We spent all evening talking about this subject And since quite some months I could really see her smile again. © Warrior of the Light -- (the girl above is fictional) -- |